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I'm losing to some less experienced guy in a penspinning battle.

I don't know what to say lol. I want to win, but at the same time, I kinda feel bad if I win.

He challenged me and I told him I wasn't the competitive type but he was like plsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplsplspls so I reluctantly said yes.

Got my video filmed and then he said he had to use his combo for something else so he wanted to delay the battle but i told him that i accepted it and etc.. and he said he'll use some random combo he got earlier saying he'll lose. His video is not bad. I think we're almost the same level.

Then some guy came along and voted for him and suddenly everyone started voting for him for the stupidest reasons.. Some hate me so they vote for him. Others said my video was too long.. like SERIOUSLY MAN.. I had wayyy harder tricks than him etc.. If their reason was cause I was too spammy or it was too choppy then fine. Of course there're some who voted for me.

Well, I asked him to battle when he didn't wanted to cause he was scared that he'll lose so if he wins then it's a good thing cause then I would've done well and encouraged him and go: Hey see? Looks like you're winning. So why be scared?

At the same time, I wanna win lol.. like.. if it was your battle, wouldn't you want too? *sigh* I don't know. I feel bad losing or winning. Shouldn't have accepted in the first place. Stupid me.

At least there were some things I like even though it wasn't to my advantage. Some of my friends voted for him cause they liked him better. I think that's really nice cause I like their honest opinion. And I appreciate it.
Others were "too kind" and nulled.. I got nothing to say about them. If they nulled cause it was honestly a tough decision, then I guess it's ok.

Oh and I've been visiting alot of bookstores recently like Times and MPH and I've found some rather interesting books. I wish I could've bought them but they cost between 20-30 each. Think I'll save up and buy some. I really need to get on to reading something. Haven't been reading much lately.

Enough said.